But this is what you want and it makes me angry. Not at you, at me and at this situation. I fucked it up but this is reality now. Time to accept we’re never gunna be anything again. So I’m going to purge myself of my need for you by seeing these girls. Diving into everything I’ve avoided. This is what you want and what I’m forced to have. Can’t be mad if you don’t care. They want me so bad, I’ll give them a piece then. Gunna feel fucking empty as hell doing it, but can’t be worse than how I feel now. Time for that feeling to go. Fuck if I care what replaces it >:\