*Sigh* Can’t do it
I thought I could just go around and see a bunch of girls, and flirt and be a huge dude, but it’s not me. I’m trying not to care and ignore you, but I feel guilty even being around them. I shouldn’t. I’m single, I’ve been kicked to the curb over and over and still I feel a need to be loyal to you. To get rid of you in that aspect feels like I’d be losing part of myself. I’m sorry I’ve been angry and lashing out. I don’t know which way is up anymore. *sigh* idk what to do. Just gunna keep working, trying to continue. I’m texting these fuck head girls back I’m not going to see them again too. Your not ugly, but you’re not mine. sry.
Well idk where to go from here tho. just move forward with work and film. Maybe a year from now I’ll move on from this. Maybe not. Bigger problem is probably that I don’t want to. Idk, I’ll probably never stop loving you and seeing you the way I do. I guess I just gotta see if you’re possible to forget :/
- 02.20.12
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